I’m Done

Looking back over my writings the first year after The Accident. I was able to turn towards God and His truth even as I walked through loss. I’m walking through a different kind of loss now. A different kind of trial. This is hard. I can’t. I can’t turn towards God and truth. I can’t…

Fighting a Battle

I’ve been in a battle since early July. On the outside it looks like a simple legal battle, but it is really much more. I am battling with people over something very important; the outcome of the battle will affect me and others I care about for many years. There is no winning in this…

Another Year Has Passed

Another year has passed. I realize I am not the first mother to lose her son. Eve grieved Abel. Mary grieved Jesus. I will not be the last. Many others will walk this road. But knowing these things does not make losing my Andrew easier. What has made this loss bearable is knowing my son…

Five Years

I’m in Denver for a few weeks with my stepmom. She needs my help right now. She’s been ill and is in a rehab hospital. I’ve been here four of the last six weeks. I’ll be here for weeks at a time the next few months. I am here by myself. This is going to…

Discipleship

“In the working creed of the average Christian salvation is held to be immediate and automatic, while discipleship is thought to be something optional that the Christian may delay indefinitely or never accept at all…The absence of a concept of discipleship from present-day Christianity leaves a vacuum that we instinctively try to fill with one…

Disappointment

I had surgery Wednesday to remove a benign mass in my right submandibular salivary gland. When I awoke in recovery I was disappointed. For a moment I was disappointed that I did not wake up in heaven. This world is not my home. My citizenship is in heaven and I eagerly await our Savior’s return.…