8-13-13 to 9-13-13

IMG_1926I was reading back through my Facebook page from one year ago.  Here are a few posts from the first month after The Accident.

August 14

Can I wake up now?

August 15

One question:

Do I have to shave my legs tomorrow? Will anyone notice or care??

August 16

So tired but I don’t want this day to end. Afraid of the silence to come.

August 17

Never once did I ever walk alone.

Never once did you leave me on own.

You are faithful God. You are faithful.

August 19

Bible study friends:

Ephesians study starts tonight.

Rule 1. Be HERE by 6:45. Even if you have not signed up for the study. I have extra books.

Rule 2. Get your homework done. If you don’t have your homework done, just read Ephesians and come anyway.

Rule 3: do not ask me how I am doing or mention Andrew Raymond Duncan.

Rule 4: ignore rules 2&3. Just show up.

August 21

Wondering what my first thoughts of the day used to be…

Made it to the Y today. Cried through lo impact aerobics and stretch class. Now to get nails done with my girls.

August 22

Can I just take a moment to say how much I love my kids. And my friends. And my kids’ friends.

August 24

Heading to WTA&MU for a memorial service for Andrew Raymond Duncan and the other two WT students killed in the accident last week. Pray that this will begin to bring healing for the students and faculty who lost friends last week.

Looking forward to getting hugs from Austin Pond!!

August 27

Two weeks ago my life changed forever. The lives of my whole family changed forever. The lives of Andrew Raymond Duncan’s friends changed forever.

August 28

Reposting Slide Show of Andrew and video of the Memorial Service. In the comments of the memorial service is an order of service if you want to skip some parts. https://vimeo.com/user20263649

August 28

Have I mentioned that my son Peter Duncan is now an MSU cheerleader?

August 30

Taking him off auto insurance and calling BSA hospital in Amarillo to tell them they won’t get the $30 they billed from a June visit due to him not being alive to pay it. This day sucks already.

Me: this day sucks Elizabeth: have you prayed about it? Praying seems to help me on those kind of days.

So glad she is living with us!!!

August 31

Margaret Duncan is baking!! Who can be sad with that going on on their kitchen?

September 2

Just pray.

September 2

Attention all ladies!!

We will begin the Precept Upon Precept Genesis II Study on September 17!

This study covers chapters 3-11 – The Fall through the Tower of Babel.

7-9 pm at my home on Tuesday evenings.

Please email or text me off loop if you want to join us. I will be ordering books this week. Cost is $19 per person.

September 4

(13) ) For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mothers womb.(14) I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.(15) My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

(16) Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Psalms 139:13-16

Our Father knew every one of our days even before we were formed in our mother’s womb.

September 6

“They” said: It will take time. You are in shock now, in 3-4 weeks it will hit you. HARD. You will get angry. You will find it hard to function. This will be harder than anything you have ever done. You will need help.

“They” we’re right.

“They” also said: We will pray for you. God will hold you up. The Holy Spirit will comfort you. You are loved. We will help. It will get better. You will make it.

I hope “They” we’re right about those things as well.

September 6

So….

Ron wants to know if I want to get up at 5:45 to drive to LETRA to do a triathlon with him tomorrow. Should I do it??

Total bike rides in 2013 – 2 Total distance in a pool in 2013 – 350 meters. Total distance wogged in 2013 – 15 miles.

What do ya’ll think? Should I?

September 6

Can’t Sleep.  Yuck!

September 7

Ron did awesome. Trail run was a zigzag uphill – steep uphill – in the sun the whole way. Proud he finished.

I did AquaBike. I beat the guy who got a flat a mile from the transition to the run.

But, hey! “I was in the show!”

September 10

My life the past four weeks since Andrew arrived in heaven:

God, some of the things that happened today were hard and I don’t like them.  I will praise You because You alone are worthy of honor and praise. Amen.

September 10

19 years ago I went to bed wondering if I would have the baby soon. And would it be a Margaret baby or Peter baby??

Peter was born the next day. Making it an even two girls and four boys. 17 months later, we got the Margaret baby

I love you both.

And Meredith, Elizabeth, David, Adam, and Andrew. So blessed to be momma to you all.

September 13

Pray for my children. They are missing their brother.

 

I have come so far in the last year. God has healed my broken heart and helped me to live through the loss my son. I am grateful.

 

 

 

2 thoughts on “8-13-13 to 9-13-13

  1. Thank you, Dale. It is by God’s grace that we have been able to go on after The Accident. His grace is always sufficient for us who believe. Sharing our story and our kid’s story, I pray, will help others heal from the loss of a child. No matter the cause of the loss or the age of the child, we hurt and need healing from the Creator.

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