My thoughts on this Christmas season. It is a little over fifteen months since Andrew’s death. Looking back and thinking about it all…..
Last year is a bit of a blur. I don’t remember much of Christmas last year.
Last week, Ron and I put up all my nativity scenes. I have collected them for years and have 20+. I’m not sure when or if a tree will go up. Probably when he gets home from his business travels, before the boys come home from college and work.
I love the nativities because they remind me that all of this – our lives, our deaths, everything we do on earth – is to be for God’s glory: Jesus came to earth so that we could have eternal life beginning today! Our lives with our children and my life after Andrew’s death are to be about His purpose and will.
He is compassionate, gracious, abounding in love. He sent His Son into the world not to condemn the world but to save us, that anyone who believes in Him may have relationship with the Father and live eternally. Beginning today.
The baby we celebrate grew up. He taught and walked and suffered. He, too, faced grief and sorrow. Then He willingly went to the cross, was crucified, buried and rose again. He conquered sin and death! He conquered death so that we may have eternal life and become like Him!
He is love! He loves and cares for us because we are His body.
These are Truth!
I am choosing to walk in His light as He is in the light, to walk in His Truth, and to walk in His life which He gave me in His death rather than in my sorrow and grief.
Remembering that our lives are but a mist that is here for a little while and then vanishes, I know a day is coming when I will be with Him in heaven.
I choose the live for His glory now on earth – not for my feelings – while I wait for that day. I choose to not let my son’s death (or anything else) keep me from living fully for God’s glory today.
Is this always easy? No. Do I do it perfectly? No! Do I still have hard days? Yes.
But I believe we can choose what we think about; we can choose to concentrate on our pain and sorrow or we choose to rejoice in the Lord.
All of us, every one of us has something we could use as an excuse to wallow in sorrow or self-pity, something that could stop us from glorifying God if we let it.
But I choose to not let suffering stop me from glorifying my Heavenly Father. In fact, He will use our suffering for our good and His glory if we are willing.
Day by day. Little by little, as we choose to follow Christ, we are transformed to be like Him. And our sorrow becomes less and less. He becomes greater and greater in our lives.
Seeing my nativity sets around me this time of year, reminds me that many women in the Bible experienced sorrow. Even Mary, the mother of Jesus, the mother of the tiny baby born in a manager grieved over her son’s death.
I am not alone. I have other While We’re Waiting moms who love and encourage me. I have friends who love me. I have a husband who cares for me. And I have the love of Christ. I have life in Christ. You, too, can have life in Christ if you choose it.
As we celebrate the birth of Christ who grew up and conquered death that we might live, I pray that each of us learns to walk in the truth found in His Word. In His joy. In His peace. In His eternal life beginning today. I pray that each of us experiences His loving healing from all of our sorrows. And as we do, I pray that we can share His love and life with others. All for His glory. Amen.