I knew I have been feeling out of sorts the past couple of weeks.
I now realize why: I have a belly ache. I’ve had it for the past couple of months. But I didn’t realize how much it was affecting me. Probably the results of taking an anti-inflammatory so long, due to my shoulder injury. Now it’s getting much worse.
I am amazed at how physical pain affects our mental state.
My life is busy and stuff happens. But my life is always busy and with a brood of chicks, even grown chicks, something is always going to be happening. The events of the last month affected me more than usual, not because they are more than usual, but because of belly pain. I feel down, critical, out of sorts.
This past weekend Ron asked on four occasions if I was okay. That’s when it hit me: I am acting like I am sick or in pain. This is not how I want to act when he is home. I want to be kind and joyful and loving for him.
But now I am ill.
And Ron is being amazingly kind and joyful and loving. Bringing me foods that are good for my belly. Encouraging me. Holding me while I try to sleep. This is not surprising or unusual. It’s the kind of guy he is: wonderful, sexy, loving, smart, funny, adorable, hardworking, talented, kind, fun…I should stop now before I make you want to gag. Suffice to say I love my guy!
I am confident that we will get this figured out. I went to doctor Tuesday and she put me a different stomach med. Blood tests are being run. Possibly an appointment with gastro doc next week and a scope. Not fun. But not life-threatening. Just painful. I thank God for good doctors and great insurance.
Here’s the deal: pain affects us. It affects every part of who we are and how we live.
We often cannot see the pain others are experiencing.
Many people we see each day have invisible physical illnesses: MS, Chiria, migraines, heart disease, diabetes, and many others. Lots of folks live with chronic pain that we don’t see. Others live with heartaches we cannot see: bad marriage, addiction, grief, poverty, infertility, financial issues, mental illness in those they love, conflict, fears, abuse, and much more.
So if someone is grouchy, mean, or simply unkind…give them kindness in return. You cannot know what pain they may be carrying or what challenges they may be facing. You may be the only kindness they experience today.