Today a friend posted about her grieving process that first year. She had a kind of routine she did each morning. It helped her grieve.
Then one day she stopped. Just like that.
She was done with that routine. It wasn’t what she needed any more.
I have other friends who four, five, or ten years later write about their grief and child loss almost every day. Maybe it still helps them.
But I think I’m done.
I think I’m done writing about death. Writing and thinking about death, grief, and pain doesn’t help me anymore. And it may be detrimental for me to spend time writing about those topics.
I think I’m done writing about grief.
I may be done writing. I’m not sure. I am sure grief will no longer be a main topic of my writing.
I started this blog in 2013 simply to let friends and family know how we were doing after The Accident. I posted about my grief and healing process. It eventually turned into a way I could help others who are grieving, to encourage them in their journey. I also wrote articles on how friends could help grieving families.
I don’t want to write about grief anymore. I don’t think about grief and death much these days. Rarely, actually. Writing about it doesn’t help me. And I’m not sure I have much more to say on the topic that will help others.
Yes, I miss Andrew. I think about the fun memories. But I don’t grieve his death daily. Maybe not even weekly or monthly.
Grief does hit at times. Rarely these days. And it’s not just Andrew; it’s for all those I love who’ve run onto to heaven before me. I miss them. Some days I miss them more.
But I think I’m done writing about it.
Thank you all for your encouragement and support these past four years.
If I continue to write this blog, grief will only be a minor topic. I will repost old articles on grief for those who haven’t yet read them. I pray they continue to help others.
Life, love, marriage, parenting adult offspring, Bible study, and faith. These are the things I spend time thinking about these days. These are what consumes my time.
Maybe I’ll write about those things.