A Lovely Day

Today was a lovely day. I’m back in Denver visiting my loved one at the assisted living. I spend a few days here monthly. I’ve been here since Thursday. I stay in a guest room on site so I get to do life with E. I participate in activities with her and the other residents.…

His Will Be Done

The past few weeks I’ve wanted vengeance. I confessed my weaknesses and need for help. Friends prayed. One rebuked me (in love). My attitude changed. Not by my will, but, I’m sure, because of friends who love me. Now I want to be a minister of reconciliation. This is what I wanted at the beginning…

I’m Done

Looking back over my writings the first year after The Accident. I was able to turn towards God and His truth even as I walked through loss. I’m walking through a different kind of loss now. A different kind of trial. This is hard. I can’t. I can’t turn towards God and truth. I can’t…

Fighting a Battle

I’ve been in a battle since early July. On the outside it looks like a simple legal battle, but it is really much more. I am battling with people over something very important; the outcome of the battle will affect me and others I care about for many years. There is no winning in this…

Another Year Has Passed

Another year has passed. I realize I am not the first mother to lose her son. Eve grieved Abel. Mary grieved Jesus. I will not be the last. Many others will walk this road. But knowing these things does not make losing my Andrew easier. What has made this loss bearable is knowing my son…

Five Years

I’m in Denver for a few weeks with my stepmom. She needs my help right now. She’s been ill and is in a rehab hospital. I’ve been here four of the last six weeks. I’ll be here for weeks at a time the next few months. I am here by myself. This is going to…