This is truth: The death of my child changed me.
Since the death of my son...
I am more vulnerable.
I am more sensitive.
My faith is stronger.
I have lost my innocence; I know bad things happen.
I have a hard time listening to small talk or caring about trivial things.
I have difficulty going new places.
I often have trouble sleeping.
My mind is on eternal things.
I crave quiet and peace.
I cry easily. Maybe not in front you, but if I am hurt, the tears come when I am alone.
I am insecure regarding Read more [...]
I am a wife and mother.
I am a grandmother, sister, aunt, and daughter.
I am a graduate of the University of Oklahoma.
I am a cyclist, traveler, and avid reader.
I am an Oklahoman by birth, Texan by circumstance.
I am a writer.
I am many things, but most importantly, I am a disciple of Christ.
I am imperfect, but I know the One who is perfect.
I fail, make mistakes, and sin. I am loved despite these things.
I am saved by grace and now a part of His Body.
I am in Christ.
Because I am in Christ...
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A four letter word.
I hate it!
But those of us who have experienced this tragedy live with fear.
Not as others do, for they may fear the unknown.
We fear what we know.
We fear losing another child.
Yet, even in the midst of tragedy, scripture is still true.
God is still compassionate, gracious, loving, and kind.
He still walks beside us.
He will never leave us.
He still tells us to fear not.
In Him, we can know peace.
Joshua 1:9 ESV
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Read more [...]
Last night I posted my Photo 101 assignment. It wasn't fun or happy. But it was where my head was. This morning, I want to assure you that my head is not always in that place.
My life is full of joy! I don't sit around my house grieving or thinking about grief.
If you read about my Travels (find them in the category cloud at the side bar) you will see that we have adventures and fun. Or check out our cycling adventures!
Or let me tell you about my week....
We arrived home last Monday night Read more [...]
In October of 2014, Ron had meetings in Memphis. The night before, I asked him where I would be during his meetings. "At the MEMPHIS ZOO!" He answered with a huge grin.
My husband knows that the Memphis Zoo is one of my all time favorite places, so he had planned for me to spend a lovely fall day wandering and watching animals. It was a surprise for me and I had a blast! I got to feed the giraffes and had a staring contest with a silverback gorilla. I watched the sea lion show and talked with Read more [...]
The Accident took place around 11:45 pm just outside of Dumas, TX. The cast and crew of the outdoor musical TEXAS had spent the day at a BBQ celebrating the end of another successful season. Six people loaded into a Ford Taurus to drive the hundred miles back to Canyon, TX. As he pulled onto Hwy 287, the driver ran a stop sign. An 18-wheeler broadsided them. Five people died that night.
Many of our friends rallied around us. They prayed for us, cried with us, and celebrated our son's life with us. Read more [...]
This powerful post had me in tears this morning. So many little, and huge, things I did wrong as a parent. I wish I could undo so many things. I wish I had been a better mom. But I cannot undo what has been done or unsay what I said.
I can admit my part in what I know and ask forgiveness. When they bring something up that I didn't know about, I can admit my part and ask forgiveness. I can ask God to show me so that I can admit my part and ask forgiveness...but I can never undo the hurt. Only Read more [...]
My thoughts after attending another funeral for a young man in our community:
I have no more tears
No more emotion
Death of another young person
A great young man died too soon
Another hurting family
I don't even hate this anymore
It just is
Part of the world in which we live
Death and dying are part of our lives
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Too many more to list
All of these young men are in heaven. Their lives were too short for my liking. I am thankful for their lives. And for their parents who continue to live in Christ. These parents show me how to live by faith. They show grace to me and others. They grieve and rejoice. They give me hope.
Thank you for the hope we have in Christ. Thank Read more [...]
This beautiful poem is by Deborah Ann. Today is her son's birthday. He is spending it in Heaven. Please pray for her today. If you haven't read her poetry, you should. It will lift your spirits! She posts poetry daily.
I love my new blogging friends. I love my new "waiting" friends; we encourage one another and pray for one another while we wait for the Great Reunion in Heaven with our Savior, our friend, and our children. Deborah is both. I pray today the she has wonder memories of Read more [...]