Another Year Has Passed

Another year has passed. I realize I am not the first mother to lose her son. Eve grieved Abel. Mary grieved Jesus. I will not be the last. Many others will walk this road. But knowing these things does not make losing my Andrew easier. What has made this loss bearable is knowing my son…

Five Years

I’m in Denver for a few weeks with a loved one. She needs my help right now. She’s been ill and is in a rehab hospital. I’ve been here four of the last six weeks. I’ll be here for weeks at a time the next few months. I am here by myself. This is going…

Disappointment

I had surgery Wednesday to remove a benign mass in my right submandibular salivary gland. When I awoke in recovery I was disappointed. For a moment I was disappointed that I did not wake up in heaven. This world is not my home. My citizenship is in heaven and I eagerly await our Savior’s return.…

Night Time. Dark Time.

Middle of the night. Night time. Dark time. Hardest of hard times in grief. So many dark thoughts. So many memories. So many unfulfilled dreams. So much pain. So much loneliness. Nighy time. Dark time. No one there to listen to my cries. No one there to sooth my hurts. No one there to hold…

Random Thoughts On Grief

Random thoughts for today as I am studying suffering in 1 Peter. In the short term, the death of our child outweighs everything else in our lives to the point we just don’t care about anything. I did not eat for days. I didn’t care about doing things like getting dressed, cleaning anything, or talking…

Dear Momma Who Has Lost a Child

You are not alone. Many of us also experienced loss. We want to walk beside you, love you, and pray with you. We will cry together and laugh together as we share stories of our children and our faith. We found hope in Christ with the help of an amazing ministry: While We’re Waiting.

Every Good Gift Is from God

So many beautiful things in nature and all around us! The majestic trees and beautiful sunsets. Flowers, birds, lovely insects like dragonflies and butterflies and ladybugs. Yesterday as I sat pondering the past few weeks and missing not only my son by also my sweet mother-in-law who taught me to be a good wife and…